2016

Life

Let’s be real, 2016 was difficult for a lot of us and I was no exception. Between dealing with my own health, losing my job, and helping to care for a terminally ill relative, 2016 really tested me. As we come to an end I have already spoke about my resolutions but now I want to talk about the highlights of the year for me. This is an eclectic mix so bare with me.

Getting hired

I graduated college with a Bachelor of Science degree in something that I knew from week one I had no intention of pursuing. I finished college and was left with the prospect of “well if you’re not doing this, what are you doing?”. I managed to get an interview with a start up and from there got the job. I couldn’t believe I was working as a digital designer and writer in the centre of Dublin. Even though my health caught up to me I really enjoyed working in the city while I did.

Internet

I started a website, Mettle, with a friend. We started it because we both love to write but we felt media was focused on celebrity culture and negative connotations around that. We created Mettle to not only showcase our ability to write but also create content we felt people would enjoy. It has been very interesting to run something like this and has taught me a lot. Although it is going through a transformation at the moment (and if I’m honest I’m not sure what is planned for 2017 in relation to Mettle) I really enjoyed writing for myself. I also reached a rut in my personal Instagram account but after I reopened this one, I am excited to start over. If you fancy following it, you can find it here.

Writing

Besides Mettle I have been writing a lot. I actually finished a manuscript of a novel I have wanted to write since I was 16. It was absolutely bewildering to hold a thick bundles of pages in my hand and hopefully in the new year I will finish editing it and see if it is any good. I have enjoyed dabbling with poetry though I am not very good at it. Writing has been a great solace for me this year. Creative outputs are vital for me.

Music

It was a pretty tiring year but one thing that was consistent was new music. It all started with ANTI and it just continued to get better. My favourite albums of the year are;

  • ANTI – Rihanna
  • Views – Drake
  • Joanne – Lady Gaga
  • Dangerous Woman – Ariana Grande
  • Lemonade – Beyoncé

You could be sure I was usually listening to a mix of all these. There are some I want to listen to properly before adding them to the list; Starboy, Blonde, Glory, Coloring Book, Untitled Unmastered, Awaken My Love.

Books

I have always loved getting lost in a good book but at the beginning of this year I gave myself the challenge to read 12 books. I fell short of that resolution but I definitely increased the amount of books I read. This year I am starting up the challenge again but this time I am starting a mini book club with a friend. We haven’t decided on our first book yet but keep an eye out in January because I’ll be blogging it all.

I really resented this year, it has been my toughest in a very long time but looking at the positive aspects has been very therapeutic

Resolutions

Life

Last year I spoke about making New Year resolutions in a simplified form; ignoring the traditional and looking to the contemporary. This year I’m stuck in some middle ground of wanting to make NY resolutions but with a mix of traditional and not so much.

For far too long I have done everything I was told to do – don’t wear that, go to college, get a job, don’t stay at home, get on with your life. I have done everything anyone has asked of me regardless of what I wanted. This year I am attempting to take back my life. If I want to do something I will do it and I have a few things in mind at the moment. I find it so easy (and at the same time extremely tiring) to be a people pleaser. A couple of months ago I got a stern talking to by someone about how I needed to work and if not, I needed to be volunteering in the very least. According to them I was practically wasting my life away and when the time would come for an employer they would glance at my CV and instantly reject me because I was sick for a year. As you can imagine that comment swam around in my mind for months. Then one day it clicked; just because that is how they lived their life didn’t mean that was how I was going to live mine. I started to think about all the times I have done something because I was told I *should* do it. I’m over it.

This year I want to go places, I want to drink and eat, I want to learn, and I want to live/do what I want to live/do. This is a mighty task for me. I am completely unable to go against the grain but I will do my best.

Save

I will save as much as I can for future events. I don’t need excessive money (nor do I have it) since I am living at home. I am going to try and save as much as possible. I have large plans for the end of 2017 and will need every penny. So, essentially, saving for a rainy day is my first resolution.

Learn

I have wanted to learn Italian for the longest time but I never did. After going to Italy last summer my obsession grew and now I am determined. I am currently watching Italian movies with English subtitles (I have been watching Il Viaggio today) and I am trying to learn one thing a day e.g. today was the alphabet and next will be numbers. Then I’ll go from there.

Live

Learn to say yes to situations that I know I would enjoy. Like I said I have large plans for the end of this year and that is keeping me motivated. I have never had a plan in place, something that I have truly wanted to do for years and I finally feel like I am ready. The first year I want to actually put a plan into motion rather than just talk about it.

Heal

I have been sick for four years and it was under control for two of those. This year has tested me, being at home for the past year, so I want to take this year to heal my physical health and mental health. I want to also heal myself out my body. I want to heal my relationship with food and exercise – to enjoy it without being focused on weight and to learn not to emotionally eat when I’m sad. 

I’m am filled with hope for the coming year and I just hope my motivation lasts. I deliberately chose nothing too severe so I have a good shot at each resolution.

What are your resolutions? Do you find New Years is the same as any other day or do you wait for the renewal it brings?

New Year, new m- please stop.

thoughts

I have fallen victim to New Year resolutions for a numerous amount of years. At one point I think I believed it was a necessity. I have done the basic, everyone-has-done-it resolutions; get fit, get money, lose weight, get a fantastically well paying job, generally get my life together. Then there are the really cliche ones that I definitely repinned in the past; learn to breathe more, travel the world with your best friend, sleep 8+hours, drink the same amount of water as an orca whale daily. Before you send hate notes on beautifully hammered pearlescent paper and packaged in brown kraft wrapping with a velvet bow, I love Pinterest but sometimes the ideal life isn’t the life for all of us.

This year I want to stop bitching. I wasn’t a bitchy person but due to unemployment and general lack lustre life I have become very bitter. I think this corresponds with the people I surround myself with but the blame also lies with me. I have a friend, she is wonderfully hard working, welcoming, hilarious, and witty but she could knock you for ten with her words. She told me a story of a mutual friend and a horrible ordeal that person is going through. I muttered that I could see something like that happening to her while my friend said “really? Oh God, I think it is awful sad.” When I heard my friend who is so black and white to feel so compassionately towards this situation makes me look even more like such an ignorant and scathing person. At this moment I saw myself for what I was projecting – hate and bitchiness. This is not me and I put it down to being angry at the world. My other New Year resolution is to lose weight and get fit but that’s a give in.